Today has been great! I woke up 2 and a half hours early so I could take my time getting ready and read scriptures. All day I felt totally fine despite getting a little less sleep. But for some reason, once 5 o'clock rolls around, my energy and focus is totally spent, everyday.
I am too afraid to go home because I know I wont focus and most likely will waste time talking to roommates (not that thats a waste of time, but you know what I mean). So I walk around on campus, spend too much money on lunch/dinner, search for a choice studying spot, and call someone for a chat. Usually once this process is over its 6. Time to do homework. So I sit down get ready and read. Within about 10 minutes I'm dozing off. I think if I can sleep for just a little, I'll be good! So I sleep for about 8 minutes, most likely. Then go back to reading. I'm in a spot that has minor traffic, so I listen to music while I study, usually Sigur Ros or Explosions in the Sky (I would listen to other stuff, but thats as good as it gets on my ipod). Ethics usually takes me a little over an hour to read 10 pages. And now its 7. I've decided the life expectancy for each spot I study in is one hour, then I usually move. Now its time for Writing and Environmental Stewardship.
Ok, so pretty much I am exhausted. To the point that some minor dumb thing is most likely going to make me lose it. Which is terrible because I need to do my homework. Its just hard too because I always study in the MC/Library because I don't want to walk to another building. That'd mean I have to go outside! But in the MC I've walked buy the swing dance room, the people chatting and eating at the Crossroads, the fancy poetry slam, improv performing, and hear the laughter of the people bowling. It kills. Because when it starts getting late and everyone plays, I stay in the library to start my homework.
I love my job and am so grateful to have one. But for some reason, I'm still not pro at balancing my life out.
Anyways, yesterday I had straight A's!!! But I'm back to a high B in Philosophy. NBD.